Feelings can be controlled,but tears never lie.

" Always remember that you can never find a perfect partner to love you th way you wanted , only a person who's willing to love you more than what you are , someone who'll accept you for what you can and what you can't be . And that's even better than perfect . "

Okey , sorry for not posting and updating for th last few days . :/ Nothing really happening happened these few days , lol .
Monday , 251010 , nothing really special happened . If i did not remember wrongly , i went out to slack ? I can't recall alrdy , sorry !
Tuesday , 261010 , skipped school for this day . Went town with xinlin , vee , stella , rebecca , elsa , debbie , winnie and joyce . To sum up th whole day , it was fun towards th end ! But , i was very tired . Lol . x:
Wednesday , 271010 , went to school just to talk to ongjiahui initially . Met up with ryan , benjamin and elsa first at around 645am . And then , ryan and benjamin went off , left me and elsa . We went to 180 to wait for tanshihui to come . Hehehehe , had mac breakfast after that . ^^ . After that , elsa went off then me and tanshihui went to school lorh . Walked into school , school really machiam no teachers and like school holidays come alrdy , lol . Went to find th counsellor , then she say ongjiahui not in school today . I was like , whatthfuck , then waste my time come to school for what . So after that , went to find xinlin and debbie for a short while , they're having a break from band ! And then decided to go out th school since there's nothing for us to do . Went to 631 opposite school to slack for a short while , and then we went back home . I changed and went to meet stella at 180 . After that , went to meet shujing , amanlia , xiuyi and elizabeth outside mac . Vee came after that . Then slacked for a while , i went home .
Thursday , 281010 , went to school to collect report book ! Had mac breakfast again , with xinlin , vee , debbie , tanshihui and elsa this time round . Went in school at around 10am , hehehehe ! ^^ . After collecting report book , went to 180 . Stella met us there , and vee came after that . Slacked there for quite awhile , and then off to plaza mac . Shujing and her cousin came after sometimes . (: Homed at around 7pm , tired eh .
Friday , 291010 , which is today ! Woke up at around 11am plus , and i still feel tired . -_- ! Had brunch , and i'm gng town later on with my aunt . Hehehehe , shopping time . ^^ ! Okey , i'm lazy to elaborate more alrdy , bye !

It's not about who hurt and broke you down, it's about who was always there and made you smile again.

" I guess that's why saying goodbye is always like jumping off an edge . Th worst part is making th choice to do it or not . But once you're in th end , there's nothing you can do but to let go . "

Back to post . ~ Slept at 12 plus last night and i woke at 7am plus this morning . -__- My mother wanted us to go punggol with her for some really boring and lame event , which i dont wna elaborate here . I was feeling damn tired all th way , and kept dozing off on train and bus . -.- ! Went to bugis after that , bought koi and raglan tee . Hehehehehe , ^^ ! Tmrw is th promotion day , i'll be going back to school to collect my ic first . I really hope i won't retain , i really don't wna retain this year . ): Maybe some of your are right , there's no use crying over spilt milk huh . Hm , okey back to th post . Bused back to panjang after buying my raglan tee , and then i'm going to play bankai story now , hehehehee . I miss sticky , i think im gng stock up sticky again soon ! Okey , byeee . (:

I'm willing to back off, and leave you alone, if that makes you feel better.

Heyh friend , this is dedicated to you . You should know who you are , i guess .
Once again , really thankyou for everything you gave to me and all of us before this . I really enjoyed those times with you . When im upset , you'll never fail to make me happy , and make me laugh like some crazy woman . You and your jokes , your actions really made my day in school everytime . Those times when we gossiped about others and those we dont really like , those times when we spammed facebook news' feed and being so sarcastic and guailan , those times when we stayed up so late at night , talking about th same topic . I guess i'll never be able to forget those memories we once shared . I remembered i promised you to quit smoking , i promised you to only smoke 4 sticks a week , i didnt keep my promise . I dontknow why , im scared to see you cry after th overseas camp . I'm sorry to have break th promise i made , and maybe , letting you feel disappointed in me . I thought that things are getting better , but i was wrong . You gave me th feeling of .. you didnt even wna talk to me in school ystd . I felt it . And after ystd night at twitter , i've decided to leave you alone from now on . I don't wna bother you anymore , i don't want you to cry and be so sad over this matter anymore . Maybe , there's some misunderstanding in between , i dontknow , i really dontknow . I'm leaving , backing off , not gna bother you anymore either on facebook , twitter or in school . I still remember that , at th start of th year , when we havent know each other , i didnt really like you cause i thought that you told th teacher me and brenda pon class . But after th overseas camp , my view on you changed and you became an important friend of mine . Maybe , you dont know how much i cherish this friendship , how upset i felt when this thing happened . Afterall , its kind of pointless to say all these now . It's great that school's ending soon , we'll all have around 2 months to cool down . And yeh , i dontknow how to face you now . I'm sorry for th tears you've dropped these few nights , you're not th only one to blame for this whole things to have happened . Me myself dontknow why this thing will happen too . Really thankyou for everything , althought we're not friends for long , i've to say that you're a really great friend to be with . And , dont be disappointed with your results alrdy , i'm sure you'll be able to promote and work harder next year alright . Don't give up so easily , you can do it if you persevere on . Goodluck and all th best in life , my friend . I'm sure you'll be even happier with anyone else , but not me . Sorry for being sucha bad friend afterall . Goodbye , and be happy , please .

You mean absolutely everything to me, but let's face it, i mean nothing to you.

" Truth is , everybody's gna hurt you . You just got to find th ones worth suffering for ."

Back posting , sorry for not updating ystd . ~
Ystd , friday , 221010 . Went late for school and skipped th first period , went to plaza and had mac breakfast instead . Hehehehe , i like ! Chemistry results were kinda expected , but i cant help it but to feel upset over it . Ohwell . Watched monster house during english period , and checked results during th form teacher period , which is th last period . Jeslynong , prepare to retain ba . (: Wanted to collect ic after school , but th queue was damn hell long and its moving so slowly , so decided to collect on monday instead , when there's no school . Went opposite school with elsapeh , angxinlin , tanshihui and stacia . Met up with vee there . Went plaza after that , and i went home to change . Wanted to buy heneiken , but in th end never buy . ): Sigh , i wna drink soon ! ): Cabbed over to lot one to meet rebecca , winnie and joyce and watched th child's eye together , th show was .. okeyokey . I dont understand th ending though . :/ After that , bused back panjang and went home after slacking awhile at mac .
Today , saturday , 231010 . Slept at around 3am plus last night , and i woke up at 9am plus this morning . Not enough sleep and my head is hurting quite alot now . Dont think im going out today , as im feeling so lazy . Haaa , okey bye .

I'll leave you alone from now on , don't worry , i won't continue bothering you anymore . I didn't expect things will have to come to this state , i think you didn't expect it too . And yeh , things won't be like th past anymore , we will not be as close anymore , will not laugh together as much anymore . I didn't expect myself to have cried over this friendship , i supposed you think so too . I'm sorry , goodbye .