壊れた約束 .

Feelings can be controlled,but tears never lie.

2010-10-29T12:59:00.000+08:00

" Always remember that you can never find a perfect partner to love you th way you wanted , only a person who's willing to love you more than what you are , someone who'll accept you for what you can and what you can't be . And that's even better than perfect . "

Okey , sorry for not posting and updating for th last few days . :/ Nothing really happening happened these few days , lol .
Monday , 251010 , nothing really special happened . If i did not remember wrongly , i went out to slack ? I can't recall alrdy , sorry !
Tuesday , 261010 , skipped school for this day . Went town with xinlin , vee , stella , rebecca , elsa , debbie , winnie and joyce . To sum up th whole day , it was fun towards th end ! But , i was very tired . Lol . x:
Wednesday , 271010 , went to school just to talk to ongjiahui initially . Met up with ryan , benjamin and elsa first at around 645am . And then , ryan and benjamin went off , left me and elsa . We went to 180 to wait for tanshihui to come . Hehehehe , had mac breakfast after that . ^^ . After that , elsa went off then me and tanshihui went to school lorh . Walked into school , school really machiam no teachers and like school holidays come alrdy , lol . Went to find th counsellor , then she say ongjiahui not in school today . I was like , whatthfuck , then waste my time come to school for what . So after that , went to find xinlin and debbie for a short while , they're having a break from band ! And then decided to go out th school since there's nothing for us to do . Went to 631 opposite school to slack for a short while , and then we went back home . I changed and went to meet stella at 180 . After that , went to meet shujing , amanlia , xiuyi and elizabeth outside mac . Vee came after that . Then slacked for a while , i went home .
Thursday , 281010 , went to school to collect report book ! Had mac breakfast again , with xinlin , vee , debbie , tanshihui and elsa this time round . Went in school at around 10am , hehehehe ! ^^ . After collecting report book , went to 180 . Stella met us there , and vee came after that . Slacked there for quite awhile , and then off to plaza mac . Shujing and her cousin came after sometimes . (: Homed at around 7pm , tired eh .
Friday , 291010 , which is today ! Woke up at around 11am plus , and i still feel tired . -_- ! Had brunch , and i'm gng town later on with my aunt . Hehehehe , shopping time . ^^ ! Okey , i'm lazy to elaborate more alrdy , bye !

It's not about who hurt and broke you down, it's about who was always there and made you smile again.

2010-10-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

" I guess that's why saying goodbye is always like jumping off an edge . Th worst part is making th choice to do it or not . But once you're in th end , there's nothing you can do but to let go . "

Back to post . ~ Slept at 12 plus last night and i woke at 7am plus this morning . -__- My mother wanted us to go punggol with her for some really boring and lame event , which i dont wna elaborate here . I was feeling damn tired all th way , and kept dozing off on train and bus . -.- ! Went to bugis after that , bought koi and raglan tee . Hehehehehe , ^^ ! Tmrw is th promotion day , i'll be going back to school to collect my ic first . I really hope i won't retain , i really don't wna retain this year . ): Maybe some of your are right , there's no use crying over spilt milk huh . Hm , okey back to th post . Bused back to panjang after buying my raglan tee , and then i'm going to play bankai story now , hehehehee . I miss sticky , i think im gng stock up sticky again soon ! Okey , byeee . (:

I'm willing to back off, and leave you alone, if that makes you feel better.

2010-10-23T17:01:00.001+08:00

Heyh friend , this is dedicated to you . You should know who you are , i guess .
Once again , really thankyou for everything you gave to me and all of us before this . I really enjoyed those times with you . When im upset , you'll never fail to make me happy , and make me laugh like some crazy woman . You and your jokes , your actions really made my day in school everytime . Those times when we gossiped about others and those we dont really like , those times when we spammed facebook news' feed and being so sarcastic and guailan , those times when we stayed up so late at night , talking about th same topic . I guess i'll never be able to forget those memories we once shared . I remembered i promised you to quit smoking , i promised you to only smoke 4 sticks a week , i didnt keep my promise . I dontknow why , im scared to see you cry after th overseas camp . I'm sorry to have break th promise i made , and maybe , letting you feel disappointed in me . I thought that things are getting better , but i was wrong . You gave me th feeling of .. you didnt even wna talk to me in school ystd . I felt it . And after ystd night at twitter , i've decided to leave you alone from now on . I don't wna bother you anymore , i don't want you to cry and be so sad over this matter anymore . Maybe , there's some misunderstanding in between , i dontknow , i really dontknow . I'm leaving , backing off , not gna bother you anymore either on facebook , twitter or in school . I still remember that , at th start of th year , when we havent know each other , i didnt really like you cause i thought that you told th teacher me and brenda pon class . But after th overseas camp , my view on you changed and you became an important friend of mine . Maybe , you dont know how much i cherish this friendship , how upset i felt when this thing happened . Afterall , its kind of pointless to say all these now . It's great that school's ending soon , we'll all have around 2 months to cool down . And yeh , i dontknow how to face you now . I'm sorry for th tears you've dropped these few nights , you're not th only one to blame for this whole things to have happened . Me myself dontknow why this thing will happen too . Really thankyou for everything , althought we're not friends for long , i've to say that you're a really great friend to be with . And , dont be disappointed with your results alrdy , i'm sure you'll be able to promote and work harder next year alright . Don't give up so easily , you can do it if you persevere on . Goodluck and all th best in life , my friend . I'm sure you'll be even happier with anyone else , but not me . Sorry for being sucha bad friend afterall . Goodbye , and be happy , please .

You mean absolutely everything to me, but let's face it, i mean nothing to you.

2010-10-23T11:54:00.000+08:00

" Truth is , everybody's gna hurt you . You just got to find th ones worth suffering for ."

Back posting , sorry for not updating ystd . ~
Ystd , friday , 221010 . Went late for school and skipped th first period , went to plaza and had mac breakfast instead . Hehehehe , i like ! Chemistry results were kinda expected , but i cant help it but to feel upset over it . Ohwell . Watched monster house during english period , and checked results during th form teacher period , which is th last period . Jeslynong , prepare to retain ba . (: Wanted to collect ic after school , but th queue was damn hell long and its moving so slowly , so decided to collect on monday instead , when there's no school . Went opposite school with elsapeh , angxinlin , tanshihui and stacia . Met up with vee there . Went plaza after that , and i went home to change . Wanted to buy heneiken , but in th end never buy . ): Sigh , i wna drink soon ! ): Cabbed over to lot one to meet rebecca , winnie and joyce and watched th child's eye together , th show was .. okeyokey . I dont understand th ending though . :/ After that , bused back panjang and went home after slacking awhile at mac .
Today , saturday , 231010 . Slept at around 3am plus last night , and i woke up at 9am plus this morning . Not enough sleep and my head is hurting quite alot now . Dont think im going out today , as im feeling so lazy . Haaa , okey bye .

I'll leave you alone from now on , don't worry , i won't continue bothering you anymore . I didn't expect things will have to come to this state , i think you didn't expect it too . And yeh , things won't be like th past anymore , we will not be as close anymore , will not laugh together as much anymore . I didn't expect myself to have cried over this friendship , i supposed you think so too . I'm sorry , goodbye .

Every tear carries a hidden message of joy and sorrow.

2010-10-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

" Learn to appreciate th rainbow after cursing th rain . It's just like loving again after experiencing th pain . "

Back to post , people . Sorry for not updating ystd eh , cause i've really got no mood ystd . 20102010 , maybe one of th worst day of my life in this year . :/ Got back some papers , and its like .. i failed almost all of them . I asked myself, i did studies , but why in th end , i'll get this kind of fucking results . And its not borderline fail , its really like , F9s . I tried my best in maths and physics , but ended up getting this kind of disappointing results . I really see no point in studying so hard anymore , seriously . Anyway , thankyou to those who tried to cheer me up ! (:
Today was a better day , hehehehe . Went to look for th counsellor regarding to th ojh's matter , i think i'll be thrashing things out with her either on next wednesday or when november holidays start . Let's see what she has to say by then , confirm alot jiaowei . -_- . Tanshihui accompanied me to th counselling room , and then she was like playing with th softtoy all th way , Lol ! Other than sleeping , i guess her hobby is to actcute all th time . HAHA . Walked to th lrt station after that , and trained back home . Nothing much happened today . Ohya , singapore machiam genting now . Lol , its really hazy . -.- Okey , i think im like crapping here cause i dontknow what i can write anymore . Will post tmrw , i guess . Bye .

I'm afraid that you'll breakdown sooner or later , if things carry on in th manner . Life has seriously been a mess for us , for me and you . I'm sorry , sorry for everything .

Even a thousand words cant express how im feeling now.

2010-10-19T16:22:00.000+08:00

" Friends are like stepping on wet cement . Th longer you stay , th harder for you to let go . But at th time you set free , there'll always be a mark that you've been a part of it . "

Haii , im back posting again . Hehehehe , woke up quite late today due to th nice weather . I love rainy days when i get to sleep in late , th perfect weather to sleep . Lolol . Rotted at home in th morning , and then went down senja grand to meet ryan at around 2pm . Same la , chatted for awhile and then i came home . Actually , nothing really happened today and i dontknow what i can blog about . -_- , im just posting for th sake of posting . There's school tmrw , and we're taking back our results tmrw oh . Should i be excited , happy or afraid ? Next monday is promotion day alrdy , scarly i really retain then really goodgame for me . Hm , sian . I should go watch hello baby again , hehehehe . ^^ . Okey , shall update tmrw if i got th time . Ohya , and thankyou tanshihui for ystd night , although you break my heart so many times . ♥

Dont ask me for th reason why , cause i myself dontknow th reason why . And yes , everything happens for a reason , but i dontknow how to express out how i felt ystd when everything happened . Its not your fault , perhaps it my fault for being so oversensitive and thinking too much . All i can say its that , maybe we didnt spend enough time together to get to know each other better , that's why things will come to this stage . Actually , its only a small matter . You need not know th reason behind , really . Even if you get to know th reason behind , it still wont change anything . You've been a great friend , and you've bought to me alot of laughters . Thanks for cheering me up during those times when im sad , and when im feeling down . Cheerup too , dont think too much into this matter . Stay happy , always .
" I only know that we must not get closer anymore , cause i'll want to keep a perfect image of you in my heart . If we get closer , we might end up hating each other . " - Quoted from tanshihui's blog , which i find it so true . I hope you'll be able to understand , thankyou for everything before this . You're a great friend .

Just because you ran away doesnt mean everything will be fine.

2010-10-18T16:20:00.000+08:00

" Life is like a roll of tissue paper . We never know how much we've wasted till we get to th end . Hope that when we looked back , we didnt waste it all on shit . "

Firstly , sorry for not updating my blog for i think , two days . Didnt on my laptop eh , so didnt post . Hehehehe , and nothing much to post also . Lol . :/
Okey , let's start posting about ystd , which is er , sunday . Wanted to go catch raymondlam at plaza at first , but there're too many people there and i dont like th crowd , so didnt go in the end . Met up with xinlin outside mac , chit chatted for awhile and then stella and jaslin came join us . At around 4 plus , we wanted to go cck kbox . Vee cabbed down and th 5 of us cabbed to lot one . But , we didnt managed to go to kbox in th end cause th 8$ offer starts from 7pm and my mother dont allow . ): Went to th arcade in th end , had fun there ! ^^ . Slacked for a short while and then we bused back to panjang . Tired day eh , but i enjoyed it . Hehehehe . Went home after that and cooked maggie for dinner . ~
Monday , which is today . Stayed at home and rotted for th first half of th day . And then cabbed down to fajar to find ryan for a short while . I fucking dropped my phone when i came down from th cab because of th door . -'- ! Sibei heartpain my phone .... I think i need to get a case for it soon huh . Chatted for awhile and then he went to find his counsellor , i bused back home . I think im staying at home tmrw too , unless got people wna come out slack eh . Okey , im gng watch hello baby now . I still got alot of episodes to go ! ): Byeee . ! ~

Close your eyes and make believe, dreams do come true.

2010-10-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

" I can make everyone believe that i dont love you . But i find it so difficult to convince myself that it's true . "

Friday today , had last paper which is poa today . Woah , i slept almost one and a half hour and i left th whole last question blank , which i think cost me around 17 marks . Prepare get single digit liao , ha-ha ! Went home to change after school , and then went plaza mac . Met vee , stella , xinlin , jaslin , shujing , amanlia , xiuyi and elizabeth there . Had a great time laughing at mac , HAHAHA . ^^ ! Lowguixiang and vera came after that , we slacked for awhile at mac , then went to th library with debbieong and brendatan . Prepared florence's birthday celebration board at th library , and went off to cdans to meet up with xiaoqi , florence and stephanie . We waited for shuqi and geanna to come over from their dance session , and gave florence a pleasant surprise ! Hehehehee , hope she did enjoy herself today ! (: Im so excited about tmrw i dontknow why , Lol ! Exams are over , like finally . Gng work soon , $_$ ! Brendatan , please dont jealous . :P Hehehehee . Okey , im going to download some videos and songs nowww . Bye . ! ~

Give me one more chance, before we crash and burn.

2010-10-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

Back to post . Mother tongue listening compre was tricky today , all th answers and th passage likea difficult only . Went straight to plaza mac after we were released at around 840 am . Met up with stella and jaslin , and had mac breakfast again , hehehehe . ! Went home and changed after awhile and then walked back to plaza again . Slacked for almost th whole day eh . From 9 to around 6 plus , (Y) . Last paper tmrw , which is poa . Woah , exam like end for me alrdy cause i dont even wna read poa . Cause even if i read , also will fail until very jialat , so i dont find any point reading it eh . (: Actually .. I got nothing much to post today cause nothing happened . Lol ! Short post today okey , im going to watch hello baby alrdy . Hehehehe . Bye . ~

Dont cry because of one person. Remember, there is still 6,790,062,216 people to smile to.

2010-10-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe , back to post alrdy ! ^^ . Had pure history paper today , didnt managed to complete th whole paper due to th lack of time . Likea sad . And i think brendatanshihui is kinda crazy , study until crazy also . Spend so much time studying war of europe , end up go do question on hitler ! Sot ah you , tanshihui . HAHAHA . Went to plaza straight after th paper ends , went to have mac breakfast with tanshihui . And we like talking about someone all th way siah , (Y) . I dont talk behind your back , i think infront of you , but you chose to ignore me . Awh . ):
Ohyarh , and i think you got come my blog one right ? Damn zai siah you , copy past exactly th quote i wrote for my last post then post on facebook . You think you deleted me as friend i cant see anything that you post liao meh ? Lololol , so lame . Oh , and since you got come my blog one right , i supposed you'll read my post too huh . I just wna tell you , im not th only one against you now . So please , so spoiling your reputation by deleting and blocking people on facebook just because you cant accept negative comments given by people . And stop adding random people and finding friends on facebook , tyvm . HAHA .
Mothertongue listening compre tmrw , i find it so lame , go school 45 mins then can go home liao . Why not just put th listening compre on friday , then we need not go school tmrw ? Lolol . :P Okey , i dont think th school will be so kind anyway , awh . ): Im gng watch tv now , hehehehe . So , bye !

The most important things are the hardest things to say.

2010-10-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

" A strong person is not one who doesn't cry . A strong person is th one who knows how to be quiet , shed tear for a moment , and then picks up his sword and fight again . "

Tuesday today , chemistry and emaths paper 2 , both paper confirm cannotmakeit . Well , be prepared to see me in sec 3 next year , i dont wna say anymore . Went to plaza with xinlin after chemistry paper , joined shujing , rebecca . Vee came after that , elsa joined in too . Had a fun time teaching shujing and rebecca chinese idioms at mac , ha-ha . (: Went home with elsapeh first , cause th weather is freaking hot and i cant stand it any longer . I havent even touch on my pure history notes yet , i think i'll have to stay up late and wake earlier to study alrdy . ): Sigh .

Its not that i wna pick on you please , you know what you have done . Now , its not just me , but a whole lot of people who dislike your actions and your behaviour . Stop acting like you're really innocent , when you've also scolded me on your blog . You think delete blogpost away then no one will know meh ? Think again . If you dont want people to spoil your reputation , then stop doing those things that will spoil your own reputation . You're only sec one this year please . And if you've done nothing wrong , why walk away so fast when you see me and my friends ? Yeh , and if you've done nothing wrong , why go private your blog huh . Dont say things that contradict yourself please , tyvm . And , just to let you know , i dont talk behind your back . I talk about you openly , i posted on your facebook wall and you deleted away that post what . So now say what i talk behind your back ? Please ley . I'll reflect on my actions and behaviour , but i think you should reflect more . Continue stalking me and my friends on facebook , (:

Okey , woah , i've type sucha long paragraph for that person . Lolol . I think i should start on my pure history soon , cause they're alot of things to absorb in . I dont think i'll be able to absorb all th info in , but i'll try to read through cause i dont wna fail my pure history too . Ha-ha , okey bye .

Saying sorry wont help after you've alrdy hurt that person , next time , please spare a thought for my feelings first before you even open your mouth and say anything . You may not be able to understand why im doing all these things , you dont even know th whole story and you're at there blaming me . Can you try to see th whole picture first .. Try to put yourself in my shoes and stand in my position to think before you even blame me for everything that had happened . I know its not your fault this time , i know you've alrdy apologised to me , i know . But , i guess after all those explanations by my friend , you still dont understand how im feeling right now . I dontknow what else to say anymore , so i dont even bother to explain to you anything that had happened . Continue to think that im th bad guy here , im always doing th wrong and bad things in all of your eyes anyway . Im nothing , im only a failure in everything i do , and i know , im useless too . No matter what you do now , what you say now , it still doesnt change th fact that your words have alrdy hurt me . So .. bye .

I cry, because it’s the last thing I can do.

2010-10-11T15:36:00.000+08:00

Th above picture is key ! (L) Hehehehe . Brenda , please admit that he's so much more handsome compared to minho and taemin , and ofc yoseob ! HAHAHAH .
Okey , back to th post . Monday today , slept at around 12 plus ystd night and i was woken up by a message sent by lowguixiang at around 6am plus . I could have slept longer ! Anyway , im preparing to fail maths for this eoy exams . -_- I left th last question blank , cause i dont have any idea how to do it . And then i only knew that that question cost me 10 marks when brenda told me that after th paper . Lolol , im so zai please . Physics paper was quite okey for me , but section C was a killer . ): ! I didnt read up on centre of gravity and th last question is on centre of gravity ! -_- Maths paper 2 tmrw , i think im going to screw up th paper too . Maths seriously cannotmakeit larh . Chemistry paper tmrw too , i think i'll spend more than 1 hour sleeping thru th paper , cause im not gna read up on chem at all . I wont even understand a single thing even if i read , so i see no point reading chem ! Hehehehe . Went plaza after school , bought mac and came home . Im so tired , i think i'll go to sleep after posting . ^^ .
I didnt get to see th person i wna guailan in school today , cause lower sec went back first and we have to stay back for our second paper . Tmrw also . ): ! Hehehehe , but nevermind , i today never guailan her someone else guailan for me alrdy . Lololol . I feel so bad , but i really cant stand that person alrdy . I found out today that alot alot alot people dont like her too , hehehehe . Reputation ? Nah , you dont have one . LOL . Okey , bye . ~

是我没那个福气，却又爱上你。

2010-10-10T11:07:00.000+08:00

Haiii , im back to post again . Slept at around 1 plus last night without any internet connection , -_- Had a fucking scary and weird dream that makes me so afraid and woke up at 6am plus . My heart was like beating so fast when i woke up , because th dream seemed so real . But , dreams are usually opposite of reality right ? Let's hope its true , cause i dont want what happened in my dream to happen in reality . ): ! Okey , sunday today . Emaths paper 1 and physics paper tmrw . Need to study maths today , although i think i cannotmakeit for th paper alrdy . Hm , go through physics one more time and then i shall start on pure history . Which chapter should i read for pure history eh ? ._. War in europe or stalin and hitler ? :O Nevermind , i shall see which one i feel like reading later . Hehehehehe . Staying at home for th whole day today if im not wrong , dont feel like going out today anyway . :/ Okey , i think im so hardworking to be updating my blog like everyday huh . HAHAHA . Okey , byeeee . ~

나는 너무 많이 걱정 하는 것이 생각 합니다.

Dont build your happiness on someone else's unhappiness.

2010-10-09T18:22:00.000+08:00

Well , saturday today . Slept at around 5 plus in th morning , cause me and lowguixiang were very high then , for youknowwhat reason and we cant get to sleep . Brendatan was like watching her Beast's live performance or some videos on them , if im not wrong . Lowguixiang pangseh me at around 3 am , and then i was like , there was nothing for me to do . I lie on my bed , stare at th ceiling , listened to music , and then finally fell asleep at 5 plus . -_- ! Woke up at around 10 plus this morning , and i was like damn tired but cant sleep back alrdy . -_- ! Lololol . Slacked for th earlier part of th day , and then decided to dig out all my physics notes to study in th afternoon , at around 2 plus pm . Hehehehe . I've managed to finish revision for physics , now left maths . I think this time my maths confirm cannotmakeit alrdy siah , i forgot everything that i've learnt in sec 2 liao , including those factorisation etc . x.x ! Howhowhow . Ah , nevermind . I shouldnt worry too much , let nature take its course . Lmao . x: ! Oh yeh , i wont be on facebook tonight as there wont be any internet connection for me . ): But i can continue tweeting using my phone ! Hehehehe . I think tonight will be a boring night for me and i shall try to sleep earlier . (: Okey , bye . !

그것은 어떤 차이 만들 것 입니까?

原来爱情这么伤。

2010-10-08T15:29:00.000+08:00

Friday today , like finally . Next week whole week exam , but i havent even starting on my physics and pure history revision . ): Went to school today like normal , free periods today . Hehehehe . Had fun during english , cause of lowguixiang's great plan ! ^^ . Had more fun after school , HAHAHA . After school , lowguixiang , debbieong , brendatan and i walked past th second floor class ley , then debbieong was so guailan , i like ! She should have shout louder , hehehehe . Something more funny happened in th canteen toilet after that ah , best liao larh that one . (Y) . ! Later people go complain suki we bully her liao , ): ! Some people really sibei funny , i dontknow why . Dont want people spoil her NICE reputation then keep doing things that spoilt her own fucking reputation . -_- ! Lame ah .
Went plaza after that with them , went to buy my honey redtea , and then to daiso . We played hide and seek in daiso , thanks to lowguixiang ah . And then alot of funny things happened after that , debbieong became our joke in mac . ^^ ! Saw elizabeth and ryan , and then went up to 180 for a short while with them . Went back to mac after that and came back home . Today is a fun day , i likeeeeeee ! :D
Maybe i should start revising soon eh , hehehehe . Okey , bye !

若选择后退，会少些崩溃。

2010-10-07T16:24:00.001+08:00

" You know that place between sleeping and awake , that place where you still can remember dreaming ? That's where i'll always think of you . " - J.M. Barrie

School was fine today , ! (: Mum went down to th school early in th morning , talked to doris chong and vice principal . I was called in too , vice principal spoke to me . -_- . Hope geog wont get zero barh , ha ha ha . Joke of today , brendatan is a 云吞 ! HAHAHAHAHA . Laugh die me siah . I was practically laughing for th whole lesson during physics . I think miss goh confirm think me and brenda siao one , lolol . Laughed until stomach pain , hehehehehe . All thanks to lowguixiang ah , gave brendatan sucha suitable and nice nickname . :P . Went 180 after school with xinlin , i know she miss me alot . Lololol , fake . ! Slacked for awhile there , with stella , her sister , jaslin and shujing came awhile later . Came back home after 180 , im like so tired for these few days . ): Im eating hershey's special dark chocolate now ! ^-^ , hehehehehe . Ah , im bored . Should i start studying for physics ? Im lazy , x: Ha-ha , okey bye .

이 시간 나를 신뢰 주셔서 감사입니다.

一个人离开，让两个人伤怀。

2010-10-06T16:05:00.002+08:00

Today isnt a good day for me , for brenda , for stacia , and etc . I dontknow how to described myself , i only know that im very suey . -_- Sigh , fucking depressed ah . But , what else can i do . Tmrw morning prepare go see viceprincipal with mother alrd . Im sorry to make you sad , sorry to make you disappointed in me once again . I dontknow how to express out in words how guilty and bad i felt when you sent me that message , i supposed no words will be able to descibed how i felt then .. I didnt expect things would become so serious , seriously . But , its too late to say anything else now , time wont rewind , i can only prepare to face th consequences now . I hope everything go well for stacia and her father too . Fucking no mood , go school early morning received that kind of news , then mothertongue period suki come find us , then sat outside general office for two periods . How bad can things get ? I really dontknow , dontknow . I feel like giving up my studies , retain sua . I supposed , i dontknow how to describe how i am feeling now in words anymore . Sorry to everyone , i've let your down . Sorry .
Thankyou debbieong , brendatan , lowguixiang and eushuqi for trying to cheer me up and encouraging me . Dont worry , i'll be fine . (:

슬픈 있도록 그래서 미안 해요입니다...

You can’t buy happiness, but you can buy ice cream, and that’s close enough.

2010-10-05T13:44:00.003+08:00

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything."

Im posting again , say yaye . Lolol , so lame . Okey , back to th post . Woke up at 430am today to study my geog , and then at 530 finally cannot take it and i went back to sleep . x.x ! Combined humanities paper today , i screwed both papers too . ): I didnt even manage to complete my socialstudies paper , left one 7 marks sbq question ! And geog , seriously fuckedup . Got study but in the end , th questions all come out like this . Got map somemore , whatthfuck only . Dont even know how to answer any questions , except for th hard engineering question which all of us had th modal answer . -_- ! Set so difficult , i think alot of people confirm die this time for geog paper . Everytime i got study for me geog , th paper come out confirm this difficult

Okey , next time i wont study for geog at all liao . Lucky i know how to write th seq for socialstudies .

Went plaza , and then home after that . Should i go sleepppppp ? Im tired , hahahaha . :/
Pure history and physics up next . Brenda , i dont need study chemistry , poa and maths ley ! :P ~ Are you jealous ? Hehehehe , someone's gna scold me irritating again for sure . Lololol . I think im gna start on pure history first , damn lots of things to remember again . Need to empty all those ss and geog stuffs , so that pure history stuffs can fit into my small brain . -_-

Okey , im depressed now . Gahhhh , i need chocolate ! Ohmygod , and now im so addicted to Hershey's special dark chocolate . (L) . See th picture above ? I can finish like one whole box or more in just one day , and its like quite expensive . ):
Okey , im like crapping cause im too bored . Bye .

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You've changed.

2010-10-04T17:34:00.000+08:00

When people are ready to, they change. They never do it before then, and sometimes they die before they get around to it. You can’t make them change if they don’t want to, just like when they do want to, you can’t stop them.
—Andy Warhol

I’ve been going through our old pictures. All I can say after it, is that I miss everything.

2010-10-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

English paper today , both paper one and paper two , i swear i screwed both of them . ): I think i can really prepare retain alrd . Going to study geog and ss later on , i dont think i can get all of th things into my head in sucha short time . Should i like , sleep earlier and wake up earlier in th morning to study geog ? I needa memorise hard engineering , soft engineering and benefits of floodplain ! And its like , alot please . Sigh . I dont wna fail my humanities like seriously , if i fail my humanities this time , i really can go bangwall die sua . Enough of crapping huh , lolol . Went home straight after school today , feel so tired like ohmygod . ~ Slept for 40 plus minutes for paper two , wrote 152 words for summary . Passage A is sucha killer , dont even know what's it talking about . -_- .
Someone danced ballet in class during recess just nao , not in our class . But in a class opposite our class , and one floor below it . HAHAHAHAHA , laugh die me seriously . :P
Goodluck to all for th humanities paper tmrw , jiayou ah . Especially actcute xiang , keep say wna give up . Tsktsk . Okey , bye .

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Only heaven knows how much i care and love you.

2010-10-03T12:49:00.001+08:00

Sunday today , tmrw's English paper huh .
I cant afford to fail my English , but how to study for it ?
I'll try to complete socialstudies today ,
and then geog , after that shall be th format for English writing . :/
Not gng out today again , will be studying like for th whole day .
I feel so lifeless , i want exams to pass faster . ):
Had a bad night ystd , sleep machiam never sleep .
Keep sleep and wake , sleep and wake . Dontknow what am i thinking about .
Just had brunch at 163 just nao , hehehehehe .

Elsapeh , you created twitter just to irritate me lorh , like seriously !
But , still thankyou eh . I appreciate it . (:

I feel like drinking honey redtea again , !
Actcute xiang , you wna go buy for me anot ? Hahahahaha . :P
And below is a picture for actcute xiang to see where th cut on my hand is ,
in case she starts to think alot , and thought i did something stupid . :/

See liao marh , actcute xiang .
Hehehehehe .
Okey , bye .

Eat, Pray, Love

2010-10-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.
—Elizabeth Gilbert

Smiles are wonderful. But it’s even more wonderful when you get to be smiled at by the person you love.

2010-10-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

I find th picture above is so naise , ~ Loool . x:
Saturday today , i just woke up like not long ago .
Not gna go anywhere , i guess .
Feeling so freaking lazy today , i wna spend th whole day lying on bed . :P
Had a fun time with lowguixiang ystd night at facebook ,
hehehehehehe .
Some people just like to delete my post and her status on facebook ,
i dontknow why either ley . Tsktsk .
Nevermind , its not worth to be angry over this kind of people horh lowguixiang ! (:
I should be studying , instead of spending hours surfing th net .
Nevermind , i just gave up on geog . How about that . ~
Havent even touch on socialstudies at all , and im planning to read only one chapter .
hohohohohoho .
Im crazy , okey bye .

You're still living somewhere deep in my heart ,

i wonder why i fell so deep .

At th end of th day , no matter how much i deny it , i still miss you .

2010-10-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

Back to post , as promised . Ha ha ha .
Mothertongue paper 1 & 2 today .
Sigh , i swear i screwed paper 1 .
Fucking wrote th wrong question number ,
and my whole mind was in total blank when im writing .
I've got nothing to write at all , sigh . ):
Paper 2 was fine for me , except for session A .
I love th passage given in session B , i always love those passages .
Ha ha ha .
Went brendatanshihui's house after that with lowguixiang .
They're so crazy over b2st , ):
I dont like !
Bused back to lotone with auntiexiang after that ,
went to th pasar malam and then back home .
He he he .
I wna study , but nothing gets into my brain . Sigh .
Quite long post alrd horh , gng bath soon . ~
Bye . (:

Tell me im wrong then .

Its about th effort we put in .

2010-09-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging again , ha ha ha .
Well , guess im too bored at home eh .
Mothertongue paper 1 & 2 tmrw ,
and im still here surfing net and downloading songs . x.x
I'll try to update this blog more often okey .
Short post cause th internet connection sucks ,
and blogger is lagging on me like dontknow what . -_-
Goodluck to all for th paper tmrw , (:
Bye .